So my sleep schedule is back to a normal, quite good routine. I'm back to about eight hours of sleep a night, falling asleep pretty quickly, only waking up once with no issues falling back to sleep, and then waking up before my alarm to enjoy a few extra minutes of early morning quiet. When I realized that this morning on day two of a government shutdown, it surprised me until I started reflecting over the patterns of the last year and a half.
It's not the threats to my job and my country (which have been great over the last 8 months) that cause me to lose sleep at night. I won't say those things have no affect on my body because they are a significant stress but they aren't the stresses causing the obvious distress in my body. I must be managing those stresses reasonably well.
The manifestations of stress in my body correlate very closely to the processing work I'm doing about my marriage and ex-husband. And the impact of seeing myself in his new girlfriend a couple of weeks ago has resulted in a lot more feelings of peace about the end and a greater focus on how much better I am today. So it follows naturally that my sleep would return to normal and that my blood pressure would be starting to go down.
It's astounding that the lingering effects of a relationship that ended over a year ago can have a greater impact on my body than the current threats to my job, finances, and freedoms. That really boggles my mind.
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