I still love him.

I’m going to be honest. I still love him and care deeply about him. Those feelings may never really go away. 

AND I recognize that I am not what he needs now. 

AND I have decided that it’s time to finally love me more. 

All three of those things are true at the very same time.  Maybe that's what makes the healing so complicated.  I'm trying to find that space where I feel good in the life I create as I move on without erasing the past and while embracing the impact my past has on my present and future.