Saturday, September 28, 2024

"I think"

I lost count of how many times "I think" has been repeated in the explanations my soon-to-be ex-husband has given me.  And not "I think" in terms of him sharing his thoughts but "I think" in terms of him not being sure of the answer.

One of the things he has repeated a number of times is that he no longer loves me as a husband should love a wife.  As we were cleaning the kitchen of the old apartment this afternoon, I asked him how he thought a husband should love a wife as I wasn't aware of a universal definition.  He responded that he should be able to feel safe and vulnerable with me and be able to be his self.  I asked him if he had ever felt like he could be vulnerable with me.  His response was "I think while we were dating" two decades ago and he isn't even sure it happened then.

I asked if he wasn't sure he had ever been vulnerable with me how does he know it is me vs him just not feeling like he can be vulnerable with anyone.  His response was "I think it is you."

He is divorcing me with the confidence of "I think" over something that has a pretty good chance of being an issue that has absolutely nothing to do with me.

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