Today it was advice about the bluetooth speaker I have decided to take. Last week it was a full typed page of instructions about my car with a car kit of all the cleaning, waxing, etc. things he thinks I need. Before that it was adding material things to our shopping list that he was so sure I need for my new apartment.
Just imagine if he cared for me even a fraction of what he cares for these material possessions, how differently this would have gone. Maybe we still would have split but it could have been done with integrity and honesty. It could have been done without insensitive jokes like the one he made tonight. It could have done in a way that was self-reflective and empathetic and focused less on pointing fingers. (He seems to think one of his biggest strengths is empathy, just not for me I guess.)
It's so hard to get past the indifference and the complete lack of care for me, my feelings, and how his decisions affect me. This is a man that claimed to love me day in and day out for two decades. Yet can't even bother to care now that he decided he wants out.
No comments:
Post a Comment