His attorney sent him a draft Marital Settlement Agreement today. After he reviewed it, he handed it to me to look over. All it took was a glance at the caption "his name" vs "my name" and I knew I couldn't do it tonight so I left it in the living room.
To see our two decade relationship boiled down in a legal document that divides all the tangible evidence of what we had built together with what I expect is such indifference breaks my heart. It just reminded me that the commitment he made to me over 19 years ago meant so little that I wasn't even worth a sincere effort to make it work.
He let resentment build up and respect for me vanish without even attempting to have any conversations with me over the years based on negative assumptions that weren't accurate. He lied to me every day for who knows how many years when he told me he loved me, cared about me, and was happy while he sat in silent misery. Or maybe he is lying now and is attempting to revise history. Or maybe some of both. I just don't know anymore. I don't know who this man is that can with such indifference and lack of empathy just throw away a marriage.
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