I had the most real conversation with my husband this evening, one that was so uncharacteristic of our marriage and displayed so much vulnerability and raw emotion. It was heartbreaking and really gave me some insight into why we are where we are now and why we can't go forward together. The grief that washed over me at what could have been and what was being lost was overwhelming as I looked him in the eye and listened to his own pain. I don't even fully know what to make of it as I process it alone in my own room.
One little nugget sticks out though. He thanked me for teaching him how to set boundaries with his mom. He even shared that his mom called him by my name once during his recent visit when she didn't like the influence I had over him to set some boundaries.
This may be the end but the ways we each touched the other's life will carry forward with us, in some ways that are more obvious like this example and in many other ways that we don't even realize.
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