It's not always the moment you expect that hit you the hardest.

I went to church this morning.  I have made a point to attend every Sunday this month because this month's theme is "Meltdowns" and I think it has been helpful to read about important people in the Bible having their own meltdowns and what we can learn from them.  The sermons sometimes are hard though because they really hit close to home.  I left the first two Sundays in tears.

This week though it wasn't the sermon that really affected me which was the story of Martha and Mary.  It was the prayer led by a long-term member of our church who talked a bit about his long marriage and then he transitioned into talking about the people in his life who have influenced him for the better.  He encouraged us all to think of someone who has been a strong influence in our life and reflect on that person.

One person who has had such a significant influence in my life has been my husband.  There may have been issues with our relationship but he is a really good man and I know his actions have encouraged me to grow and be a better me over the years.  The tears that rolled down my cheek were a mix of appreciation for the role he played in my life and sadness that he wouldn't continue to play that role.