I applied for the job and a hummingbird visited my basil today.

I feel really tired but peaceful.  I spent the last four days riding through the emotions tied to the idea of leaving my city, dreaming about what it would be like to live in a new city, analyzing the pros and cons of applying for the job, and then carefully preparing my application.  

And as I was on the phone with my Mom and Dad, getting last minute feedback and advice, a female hummingbird appeared at my window, not five feet from where I sat in my comfy chair.  It paused at each of the flowers on my basil plant before continuing on its way.  I had never seen a hummingbird visit my balcony.  It was a magical moment that made me stop mid-sentence and stare in awe as I tried to then explain what I was experiencing to my Mom.

Some cultures believe that hummingbirds are messengers of joy, love, and good fortune and that they are symbols of good luck.  This little hummingbird was definitely a messenger of joy.

Then I hung up with my parents, finished my cover letter, went through the application, and paused only a moment before I hit submit.  This decision has been made and acted on.  I feel really good at this investment in myself, regardless of how it plays out.  My mind can finally rest at least for now.