A Bucket List Trip

Yesterday, we would have boarded the Oosterdam in the port near Santiago, Chile.  The itinerary followed the western coast of South America with stops in Chile, Peru, and Ecuador.  We had planned to book the Machu Picchu multi-day excursion, disembarking the ship in I believe Pisco and then re-embarking in the port near Lima.  The ship would have then continued north and passed through the Panama Canal.  The Oosterdam is a small enough ship to go through the old locks with the mules.  I haven't been through the old locks yet.  After the 17 day cruise, we would have then disembarked in Fort Lauderdale.

This was a bucket list cruise for me in two ways - Machu Picchu and the old locks.

He knew this was a bucket list cruise for me.  And based on how close to the end we booked this and the fact that he told me all the love notes he left me in the last months were just lies, he had to have known he wasn't going to stay with me.  Yet, he booked it anyway.

There just seems so many layers to his cruelty.

There were so many things he did all the way until the very end to convince me that things were good between us and that he was still planning for a future with me, all at the same time he was silently planning his exit.