I woke up this morning to the clear song of a Carolina Wren. I've been hoping she would return, waiting to hear the sound of her voice. I jumped out of bed to open the patio door and lean into that sweet bird's song.
She sang outside my window every morning and evening (except when it was raining) for at least six months starting within a few days of moving into this studio last September. She was my most constant companion through even some of the darkest days of the last year.
So this morning, joy was the first emotion that ran through me. I am so excited and happy to hear her again. But then a few tears welled up in my eyes as I remembered the pain she sat through with me. And then I was overwhelmed with gratitude for the role she played.
Maybe even more importantly, I have space and capacity to feel and experience all these conflicting emotions at once, something I didn't have in my marriage.
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