The e-mail I've been waiting for

The e-mail I've been waiting for came through this morning.  I scanned it quickly until I found the word I was looking for - "Referred."  I have been deemed tentatively eligible for the Atlanta job I have been dreaming about since last August and have been referred to the hiring manager.  That means my resume should now be in the hands of the woman who has repeatedly reached out to me to make sure I am still interested in the position.

The energy that flowed through me in that moment was unreal - the relief, the excitement, the anxiety, the fear - all wrapped up with an intensity.  I tried to explain it to someone and they were really quick to tell me that I had no reason to feel anxious or afraid.  They tried to remind me of all the big stuff I've done this past year and a half.  

But these aren't bad emotions.  These are human emotions.  It wouldn't feel real if there wasn't some fear and anxiety involved with such a major move.  They are the balance to the excitement and relief, the other side of the same coin.

Anyway, that was today's excitement.  Now I wait for a call to set up an interview.

And no, I did not yet start packing up my office for the painters.  I still have at least one more tomorrow.