The rain today

This afternoon I felt a need to get out of the office and grab a coffee at my favorite coffee shop around the corner.  My office doesn't have any windows and I didn't think to look at my weather app so I was momentarily taken aback when I stepped out into a light, steady rain.  A negative feeling of "ugh!" washed over me as I wrapped my sweater tighter around me.  It was such a foreign feeling that it actually made me stop in my tracks.  What was going on inside of me that had somehow turned my joy of rain into a complaint?

I don't actually know.  And it really unsettled me.