Friday, November 15, 2024

I'm so tired.

I'm just so tired every day.  By 6:00 p.m., I'm ready to crawl in bed and so try to do everything I can to stay awake a bit longer.  I realize I haven't had many decent nights of sleep since late May, which is a long time, especially for someone who normally would sleep pretty well.  But the tiredness didn't hang over me the previous months like it has been these past couple weeks.  I don't know what changed.

Part of me worries about depression.  I faced major depression in high school and early college.  I know how terrible it can be so I think there is always a few extra checks in my head to try and catch it early.  But I just don't have any of the other symptoms.  I'm starting to feel some peace.  I'm experiencing so many moments of joy each day.  I'm really starting to get in a better place.  This afternoon I was on a bit of a high as I was able to finally get teleworking to work, then cleaned my apartment after work and went for a nice long walk to get my favorite sushi burrito.  But then it all came crashing down.

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