I'm angry at generational trauma that gets passed from one generation to the next stuck in a cycle that just creates pain and injury. I'm angry at how mental health treatment is stigmatized, inaccessible, and unaffordable. I'm angry at how even basic mental health diagnoses have been questioned in the past during many employment background checks making people even less likely to seek treatment.
I'm angry at how good people get stuck, feel trapped, lack the coping skills, and struggle to find healthy outlets. I'm angry at all the collateral damage that ripples into each relationship.
But really I'm just deeply sad at what I believe could have been if only.... And yes, I hear myself. I know what I wanted was just not possible. I just really loved him. I wanted to be the one there for him. I wanted to stand by his side as we faced the world. And so tonight I'm really grieving that loss.
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