My emotions went from the extreme this morning of feeling incredibly confident and ready to handle whatever happened to complete panic as my work day ended. I had no idea what I was walking into.
Instead of being upset about the mess I left in our marital bedroom, he thanked me for moving my stuff to the other bedroom. He said that he was planning to do that himself if I hadn't already.
He confirmed he truly is done with the marriage. He said he can't be happy in this relationship as if his partner is the one who is supposed to create the happiness for him.
He asked if I wanted to talk finances tonight or wait until the weekend. I told him I needed time. With the emotions of the day, the last thing I wanted to do was start talking pensions. This is all happening way too fast.
And then he wanted to just chit cat about his family and his trip and asked about my trip to the beach. We even sat down at the kitchen table and talked while he ate dinner. I don't know if I can do this every night - pretend that everything is okay as we chit chat about our days.
So I then went for a walk. I walked close to four miles before I found the same park bench I have gravitated to in the past to watch the sunset. Tears rolled down my cheeks as the sun dipped below the horizon. I sent a text to my sister and chatted with her for at least twenty minutes.
Curled up on that bench, bawling from the pain in my heart, I faintly heard the world move around me - runners passing by, dogs leading their owners, children playing in the distance.,...
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